My Foresight

Ever know something bad is going to happen and there's nothing you can do about it? I don't mean like a hunch or a bad feeling... I mean like a scheduled period of badness. Like a dentist appointment. Or maybe your best friend will be studying abroad for an entire semester and you're sad now. She hasn't even left yet and you kind of feel like she already has. You try not to dwell on it and focus on something good but it doesn't work cause you're a hypocritical asshole that loves to focus on the negative while telling his friends to stay positive. She hasn't left yet but you're bummed as if she has and you're maybe a little bit worried about how you're going to handle it when she finally does. And instead of talking to her about it, you're writing a blog like the coward you are. Maybe the last thing you want to do is upset her by making her think she's inadvertently causing you pain. Oh yeah... that's why you haven't talked to her about it. Sorry I called you a coward then. So did you ever feel like that? No? Just me? Alright, well... good talk.